Senseless Thoughts of an Arabian Cajun

School

2006-08-30T18:31:00.000-05:00

i'm going back to schoooool!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yayayayayay!

Weekend fun and other things

2006-06-26T23:49:00.000-05:00

so...this weekend i went to lake charles to celebrate my nephew's second birthday. dean and i left thursday afternoon and arrived just as corrin got home from her class. now, corey and corrin live with my grandparents for the time being, and their house is so hot. its understandable, they're old and don't have much of an income but our first night there i couldn't sleep. it was partly because we were sleeping in david's room and he was in there with us that night. he moves around a lot in his sleep and he's sick so there was a lot of coughing. i felt like i only got 2 hours of sleep because he woke up at 630 coughing and i thought he was choking so i bolted out of bed. i couldn't sleep after that. but the rest of the weekend david slept in his parents room and everything was ok.
friday was kind of a long day. i had to get up early so i could go take care of my passport so i can go to saudi later on this year. so after not sleeping much corrin and i were off doing things, but we had to come home early because corey needed a ride to work. so we took him to work and then went to get some things for davids party on saturday. that took a while and we forgot some things so dean volunteered to take a trip to get the rest of the stuff we forgot. i was exhausted by the time i went to bed. i just passed out and slept better than i have in a long time.
saturday was incredibly busy getting everything ready for the party. it was hectic because there was a fight between corey and corrin about sleeping in and not helping with the party and a lot of anger. then my family all came for the party and that was crazy. my mom's family is insane and all the children are very badly behaved. so we had speak forcefully to them. the party was ok and there were helium balloons so we had some fun with those after everything was over with.
sunday was fairly relaxed. we hung out at the house all day reading, talking, and playing a golf game on xbox. we ate chinese food and at 900pm we went to play minigolf. that was tons of fun. more fun than we've had in a while. it was unlimited games for 5.00 until closing time. so we goofed off and just had a good old time.
there was really only one thing that bothered me this whole trip, and its kind of a thing with corey and corrin that happens every time we visit. they argue a lot. a scary amount. i love corey to death but he acts like a three year old anytime corrin asks him to do something for her. so in turn, she treats him like a three year old all the time. its a cycle and neither will step up and try to change. and every time we go over there dean and i get stuck in the middle of their arguements because they really have no one else to talk to around here.
i would like to give corrin advice about communication. she and corey simply don't communicate well. i don't know if she would take my advice though. i think she might say that i don't know anything because i haven't been married as long as her. but dean and i communicate well and i really don't want to see my brother's marriage go down the toilet because he was too stubborn to see what is wrong with it. and i really don't want to see my nephew grow up in a home where his parents never talk to each other like they're adults. i can see that it already affects david and that makes me sad.

poop

2006-06-20T22:46:00.000-05:00

So, its been a million years since i posted anything here. i'm kinda like that...i start projects and forget about them. i have this shoebox i was putting magazine clippings on in high school and i still haven't covered the whole thing. oh well.
whats been going on with me....not really that much. in the past....9 months, i have moved three times. right now we're living in denham springs. hurray. its very crowded here. we just got to little dogs. they're old lady dogs. my step-mother-in-law (fun) loves them. they are kinda cute...but not dogs i would've picked. and they smell like wet dogs all the time, even though they're not wet. they're just smelly.
lets see...what else. my brother and sister-in-law finally moved to louisiana earlier this year. i'm really excited. at first i thought i wouldn't be able to see my little nephew grow up. this weekend is his 2nd birthday party. he sure is growing up fast. he said my name the other day. it was so cute...he goes.....'aunt kwissie.' it totally made my day.
i'm going to saudi arabia in september. my brother is going to the national guard and while he's at boot camp my parents thought it would be nice to bring Corrin (my sis) and David (my nephew) to visit them in Saudi. Corrin and david have never flown overseas, so they asked me to tag along to help them get through customs in saudi and all that junk. i'm excited because after all that happened with my parents i thought they'd never want me to go back to saudi again. but things are getting back to normal, aside from the whole being married thing, and i talk to my parents all the time now. i haven't been home to saudi in a year in a half.
can you believe that dean and i have been married almost a whole year?

guys vs. girls

2005-08-26T18:38:00.000-05:00

over the past couple of years i've noticed the difference between my guy friends and my girlfriends, besides the very obvious ones. i've learned through a coulple years of boarding school that normally guys are much more trustworthy than girls are.
girls have a need to tell. we are all guilty of it. i've learned that there is a very big difference between gossip and venting. venting to me is telling my mom or my husband what really pisses me off about people. gossiping is telling mean things. i try not to do the latter.
i was reading my good friend Josh Clayton's blog and facebook profile when once again i realized how much more i enjoy the company of guys than girls. my best friend in high school was a guy. when i tell my guy friends things that are going on in my life i have no fear of my problems or whatever being revealed to the world. guys are pretty good at keeping that stuff quiet.
girls are a very different story. i had some girlfriends in high school who enjoyed sitting around and talking about me when i wasn't around. when i was a kid my best friend told a boy that i wore barbie underwear so he wouldn't tell what kind of underwear she wore. very silly stuff. but i can't forget about that, and i have a very hard time trusting people because of many things that same girl said to me.
you would think that when you get to college all of this silly stuff would change. but, alas, college girls are just as bad as high school girls.
when i first got to college i went to a wonderful fellowship called Chi Alpha. The people in Chi Alpha are awesome, that hasn't really changed. i met Josh at chi alpha, as well as my husband. but trust is an issue with me still. i joined a life group where i thought my problems with my friends would be between us but i found out after a while that they were not safe. no matter how noble your intentions are what is said in lifegroup should stay in lifegroup and i suppose i was mistaken thinking that would happen in a group of girls.
and so Josh, as much as i miss Chi Alpha i feel as if i can't return. i don't trust the women. i can't trust the women. i've found a small church outside of baton rouge to go to that i really like. it's just like the church i grew up in. so aside from BA Holloway gigs, i don't suppose i'll see you much.

life changes

2005-08-23T14:13:00.000-05:00

Say hello to Mrs. Dean Michael Treloar. thats right. I am now Kristen Renee Treloar. HURRAY!!!!!

reflections on life and its strangeness

2005-07-26T18:59:00.000-05:00

its funny how life never turns out the way you planned when you were in high school. i never thought i'd be so upset with my parents. i never thought i'd be working full time instead of going to school.
the best thing is how your dreams turn out. when i applied for college i only applied at lsu because i KNEW this is where i'm supposed to be. the catch was i couldn't do what i wanted. for the longest time i've wanted to be a music teacher. the one thing on this earth that makes me happy is music and singing in a choir. i was in choir in high school and i feel closest to God when there are people all around me who love to sing as much as i do. the harmonies in choral music is so beautiful. i get a tingly feeling just thinking about it. when i didn't get accepted to lsu's school of music i kinda went numb. i honestly think that is when my relationship with God went south.
i don't know if you've found that place...where you feel ultimate peace. i used to live for choir. i would go through my days just so i could be in choir with my friends. i was in chamber singers with my friend Jess. we lived in the same dorm too, so we would walk back after rehearsals and sing the whole way. it was so much fun. since i've been in college i haven't really had a chance to sing much. for a while i was singing with my family's cajun group, les amies louisianaises. i had a good time, but it was only temporary. and i also tried getting into the women's choir at lsu, but my class schedule would never allow for it.
and so i'm left with an emptiness. i need my music. its the only real gift i have. i miss singing. i miss the comfort that it brings.

Growing Up

2005-07-25T23:00:00.000-05:00

when i was growing up i had an amazing ability to use my common sense. i grew up in the church which has been a fortunate life situation for me. in my family i was the good kid. my brother, who is the oldest, made mistakes before me so i got to learn from him.
life has taken an interesting turn. last semester at lsu, my grades were not up to par with the rest of my life. i've always made a 3.0 or higher and i finally failed 2 classes. the first two of my life in fact. my parents have totally freaked out on me. they've decided to blame my lack of sense on my fiance, dean, who really only played a small part in my failure. sure, he may have influenced me a little to not do my work. but i'm the one who lost focus. so my parents hate him now. which sucks.
along with blaming dean for everything wrong in my life, they have also decided to take drastic measure for their failing-at-life daughter. my parents have pulled me out of college, claiming that my emotional instability makes me a bad investment when it comes to the money they would be spending on my tuition. i have never wanted to go to school as badly as i do next semester. but i can't convince my parents that i would actually do well next semester because i finally know what I want out of this whole mess. i want to go to school and get my degree. i've even thought about going to law school. after this year, however, the chances of me getting back into college after a year off and the rising expectations of universities everywhere are very slim.
all of the craziness of life makes me ask this one question. who's kids haven't made stupid mistakes? i would like to see one parent who can say 'my child has NEVER disappointed me.' or maybe 'my child has never shown a lack of good judgement.' everybody makes dumb mistakes.
i have spent the last day crying my eyes out because i don't understand what makes me such a terrible kid. i think my brother put my parents through ten times the grief i've caused and yet they treat me much more harsh when i make a mistake. my brother started smoking in the 6th grade. they didn't do a thing about it. said they couldn't stop him from doing what he wanted. when i tried it out (i don't smoke, don't worry) they practically ended my social life. my brother just recently got married and they accepted his wife into our family with no questions asked. i have determined that my fiance will never be good enough for my parents, no matter how much more mature and responsible he becomes.
as a young christian woman i am bound by the commandment to honor my parents. i try my hardest to be respectful to them. i have had my lapses in judgement, a few of which are spending 3000 dollars in one month on their credit card, and having friends over when they were gone and knowing better. so i'm a stupid teenager. whats new? i try to be a good kid. but i'm so far from perfect. spending their money isn't respectful. so i stopped. clipped the card. and i feel better about it. but i feel that won't be good enough.
my conclusion to this mess is as follows: My parents are amazing Christian people. i love them to death. i couldn't ask for a better set of parents. they have two children, me and my brother. i am the one who chose to follow Christ; my brother isn't a believer. they are much harder on me than they are on my brother. i am held to a higher standard by my parents than my brother is. because i'm a christian i'm not expected to have lapses in judgement. my brother is forgiven because he doesn't know any better. but i do. and so i think my parents have kind of forgotten that not only am i human, i'm also a teenager in my first years of college. i'm supposed to make mistakes.

Finally Joined The Craze

2005-07-25T22:09:00.000-05:00

I finally joined the blogging craze. I'm not much for writing...so have fun reading this. It'll probably be nothing interesting. Just raving.